Why the hell would I want to talk to Brenna? First of all, she almost cost me the best thing in my life. Second all she does is complain, I do enough of that my self I dont need to hear her too. third, the only reason she ever wanted to talk to me was to find stuff out about Matt, and to act like my friend so Id believe the things she said over Matts, maybe to break up with him, all for the reason that she wants him. Hells no, forget that shit, no more. Matt was right, if all she does is make me feel bad for her, and then it gets me to me bitching to him about it, hells no thats just gonna make us two get upset at eachother, and Im done with being mad at Matt for awhile. Well screw that, forget Brenna, that name is out of my vocabulary, not to meantion any pitty feelings I had before. Anyone who uses pitty to get someone to like them, probably got what they deserved in the first place

Saturday October 20, 2001

Well life has been a little different lately. First of all yes, despite some previous doubts, Matt and I are still together. And happier than ever, I love him now waaaaaayyyyy more than I did way back in June, I guess 'cauz that every time we talk he says something soo sweet that I just get that feeling of falling in love again, but each time it gets stronger. I?m not gonna lie and I mean I already told Matt this, but like for ummm one day I had doubts about us, and I actually thought about breaking up, I?m blaming it on temporary insanity (even though I?m never sane). But then I realized what I had, and what I would be loosing, and it so wasn't worth it, I don't take anything he does for granted any more, I was also getting a bit board even though I didn't admit it. Because before I realized that it's the little things that matter, every time he smiles at me in class; of hugs me in just the right way; when he kisses me and makes my whole day better; when he sends me little notes; or gives me little surprises; just to be on the phone, even if we aren't talking hearing him breath and knowing when and if I have a problem he is there for me. I just know now how much he actually means to me, and that with out him it wouldn?t be the same, I mean I'm sure I?d live without him, but with him it?s a million times better. He makes everyday worth it. Right now he?s at some church thingy. So last night I missed him and decided to find someone to talk to. Well one of the only people on was Brenna, remember her? OK well we talked for almost an hour and a half. I found out a lot of interesting things, that I don?t know if Matt lied to me about or if he just misunderstood, one of them I'm glad he lied/misunderstood. But those are all things we need to talk about. I love him sooo much. Ttyl love allways~Vally w/b when ever!!

Hey I lived!! Ummm... Thats good, but it HURTS! urgh well at least Im alive to feel it. Thanx to Matt for his confidance, with out him I would have gone bonkers, thanx baby~Vally

Thursday August 30, 2001

I'm soo worried about getting my wisdom teeth pulled, pray for me! Matt I love you~*~*VALLY*~*~

Life rocks, except that I start hell week for volleyball and Matt by poor baby has football, Im gonna miss him soo much during that time, gosh its gonna be hard because I wont be able to talk to him much. Well thats the price you pay I guess, but it will be well worth it because both Matt and I will be super sexy, lol! Well just writting 'cauz Im bored and I loooooove Matt, w/b later~Vally

I love Matt!!! He is just sooo mmmmm mmmmm GOOD!! I love him sooooo much!*~*~Vally~*~*

WOW, Today was great, I went to see Bekah's first swim meet, but before Matt and I walked over to the pool, we had fist fight, OMG!! Then his lil' sis had to go to a party and we were left home alone again, and BAM! we did it again, DAMN!! But I'm not gonna lie it hurt soooo badly, I mean I'm fine now, but Heather was right, I probably wasn't totally ummmm....tough enough, for the first he did't hold back, and yeah when he stopped his hand hurt, which was really really freaky. But besides that it was great. Oh lets see I got my permit on Thursday and will soon be able to drive!! Poor Matt he didn't pass, but I know he will this Thursday, but hey I get to see him on Tuesday Wednesday and Thursday YAY!! Oh and Matt umm... banged me better than every awhile ago, it was wow it was soooo great, I was in orgasmic pleasure for like hours, and he's been experimenting with third, now he hasn't gone for more than 5 seconds but hey it works, that is the best feeling, well besides him being in me, which I cant imagine how that would be if I could cum while doing it, but umm maybe someday, geeesssh I'm bored right now, and all I can think of (besides Matt who is always on my mind, I love him soo incredibly much I'm really scared of it though kind of, especially 'cauz of today but that's also another story) anywayz, is food sooooo.... I'm gonna go eat dinner, but before I do, I have to say that taking a nap next to Matt today was the best thing, waking up next to him just made the rest of my day/weekend/ and maybe week, it was a really good feeling. Well gonna go eat, love always w/b whenever~Vally